The Roze Garden
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Yesterday wasn't such a good day. In fact, it was blatantly bad!!!
However, I didn't take a day off last weekend and I don't intend to take a day of next weekend, so I can justify one slip up.
The day started off seemingly good, with a bowl of Special K for Breakfast, a Banana at 11, and a bowl of Special K at 2. At 3.30 I had a Fat Free Yoghurt. Then Kate and I decided to go out for Dinner... However, the pub we went to has changed it's menu and now offers no real healthy options. So we shared a barbecue combo (2 ribs, Chicken Wings, regular chicken, Prawns), and had a side salad.
Because we were out and about I couldn't do my hour on my bike, but I guess we did spend 2 hours walking round a supermarket.
I'm owing this little slip up to the Special K Diet. It seems that I can do it for so long, and then a time comes when I'm so hungry that I crave protein and carbs.
I dreamed last night that I was at a gym and I really wanted to use the running machine, but for whatever reason it wouldn't work. I was desperate!
It shows that my body requires daily excercise now.
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who resonded to my message the other day. I was at a low point because the scale hadn't moved for a while, despite what I thought was my best efforts.
Well... I took all your tips and advice to heart straight away, and I've lost 3lbs in just a few days.
I've upped my water-intake, it's not quite 64oz yet, but probably well over 50oz. It seems to be making a huge difference!
Gotta go... Got an excercise bike that needs to be used.
Today I had one of those "couldn't be arsed to do anything" type of days. I bummed around on the computer for a few hours, then decided to get out my craft box. I planned to do some cross-stitch, but at last minute found my old crocheting blanket that I've been working on for 2 years.
Kay was interested, so I've taught her how to Crochet, then Mom joined in. So we spent the rest of the day just hooking and stitching.
My period is really fucking with my head. I had a blissful year of the total absence of menstruation, and then in February after I'd lost 14lbs, they came back.
Until now they've been a fortnightly occurance, but this last one has been bang on 28 days... which is a good thing... but I'm so headfucked.
Today I ate fruit and vegetables all day in order to try and de-toxify my body and mind. I'm not sure whether it worked. My menstruating self just wants to grab every piece of junk food and cram it into my mouth in one go. I'm not letting THAT happen.
I feel fat today. Fatter than I've felt. I can't get past these same few pounds and I feel like I'm kicking my own arse in the process.
There are so many millions of reasons why I want and need to lose weight, and I had it easy until now. Mentally this place sucks. This is the worst plateau I've experienced.
I know that it's maybe due to TOM, which is perfectly acceptable... but I just wish that I felt like all this hard work is paying off.
I'm absolutely NOT going to give up. If I have to be 238lbs for the rest of my life, then so be it. It's better than being 271lbs... and at least I know that despite the fat, I have a very good fitness level right now.
I need to work some more weights. I need to get more muscle tone in my upper body.
My legs are kicking ass... but I feel like I'm starting to get middle-heavy, - not good.
I don't seem to be able to lose my fat belly.
I'm hoping that as the hormones are trying their best to actually work right, that my period will be gone by wednesday and then I can do even more to beat up this blubbery body.
I'm determined to drop ONE pound this week. Once I do that, I know that the next one is just around the corner.
Oh well.. time for bed.
The Scale has Stuck|
I seem to have been having a problem of late: I'm fighting over a couple of pounds and I can't seem to get past this barrier.
This week I thought I'd finally broke free of 238, when I went down to 237... but my time-of-the-month came and I'm back at 238.
I'm doing 30 mins hard cardio a day, and another 15-30 mins of weights. I don't have the time to do more than that!
Diet-wise, I'm eating around 1200 calories and I'm not sure I could drop lower without feeling perpetually starved!
I normally give myself Saturday as a "free" day, where I don't have to be so strict with food (but I don't junk-out either). I don't feel like taking this Saturday off.
This plateau is pissing me off now as it's my first big hurdle. I dropped 33lbs in 3 months with total ease. Now the pointer is STUCK at 238.
I love Bank Holidays... I hate the Tuesdays after them. Work is always so slow, so shitty, so bleurgh.
Today I accomplished very little other than staring at my screen and wishing time would pass quicker. In the midst of all this I managed to lose a filling by eating a polo mint. So now that's another trip to the Dentist.
My hair has been looking like a total fuck-ball today. It's doing something crazy that I do not like and I can't seem to control. My brother thought it looked funky... I think it looks freaky. But that's personal opinion for ya.
Gay O Meter|
The Secret Window|
Just got back from the cinema. We went to see The Secret Window, with Johnny Depp.
I didn't realise until I got in and the credits started to roll that it is actually a Stephen King book (called Secret Window, Secret Garden).
I have to say that despite the numerous Bank-Holiday Brats that were overtaking the cinema, it was a very good movie with a nice chunky twist near the end.
Johnny Depp is such a great actor. I don't think I've ever seen him in anything that hasn't been good. I do believe that he is the true definition of Sex.
Maria Bello played his ex-wife - not a bad added extra since I had no clue she was in it and have had a crush on her since the days when she played Anna Del Amico in ER.
Naturally, we got the usual bunch of kids behind us throwing popcorn. I'm not really sure what is happening to teenagers today, but they seem much more evil and generally malicious than when I was a kid.
When I kindly asked them to stop aiming the popcorn at me, I got a mouthful of abuse back. THIS from a 12 year old who I could have smacked in the mouth and quite easily hurt.
Kids will be kids, I guess.
I'm 23 (almost 24), and living in merry olde England. Okay.. it's not THAT merry!
This is my first ever attempt at some kind of journally-type-thingummy.
I live with my parents, and am very comfortable with the arrangement. We have a good relationship, it's cheaper than renting somewhere, and I'm centrally located to everything I wish to be near to. Many of my friends are still at home with their parents too... so it's not like I'm odd-one-out or anything!
For the last 5 months I've been on a weight loss quest. I've always been a big girl, but I'm not so happy now being so big. My starting weight on January 16th was 271lbs. My current weight is 238lbs. I'm extremely happy with my progress and my increasing fitness levels!
This year I am determined to read 100 books. It's a challenge, but I'm hoping to crack it.
At the moment I'm reading a book called The Diary of an Ordinary Woman... which is extremely intriguing, and I'll write more about that when I'm finished it.
That's me so far, I'm sure there's going to be much more to write!
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